28.

Falling / sept 06

I wait in my evening wounds
For our love to bloom
I wait and I wait
In this room
Endangering my heart with each pause
For I remember the sadness
This wait has caused me.
I gather each thought
As if it were a blind child
And guide it through the space
I have created here.
Time shifts with each breath,
my presence is burned in two
As my yearning for love falls silent
And the inevitable hopelessness
Lets part of me die.
I have grown scabs
While listening to my soul say
no
so few hours remain
To fall in love
before fate carries an answer.
I will die waiting

Goodbye

I’m so tired
I will die naked and tired
Waiting for my heart to
Stop burning
Waiting for the last strips of
Flesh to fall from my fingertips.
that is all that is left of our
love.
These skin prints have turned to
Dust
& I cannot see beyond this
Failing tenderness.
If only I had smiled in your eyes
In person
In the flesh of union.
If only the distance was mouth to
mouth
& I could touch that which trembles
In our souls.
& survive in the color of your eyes.
But I am at the mercy of your fear,
of the pain I fit inside of you.
I am confused by your sorrows
& bear the weight of rejection.
Please come rest with me,
Let us quiet our wounds
In the coolness of this night,
Let us remember that each goodbye
depends on a kiss
& love needs heartache
to determine its truth.